The start of possible impending mayham and murder!

...yes I am okay....

I just hit the proverbial brick wall in total frustration 

with not being able to decompress in some way. 

My blog was suppose to be my alternative to meditation practice, outdoor activity, photography, computer, etc!

Having hubby out of work and home for over a year and under foot has been challenging to say the least! 

he is who he is and has always been....for 33 years....he'd go to work for 8-12 hours a 

day 6 days a week and I handled everything else except for mowing the lawn!

Now I am one who, when things seem overwhelming

deep breathe, set a plan, get organized...

kick into high gear

making this major move after living in the house for 32 years

is a major undertaking

with renovations, sorting and purging of items/stuff

I expected of him to kick into high gear, pitch in 

work as a partner in everything

that needs to be done....

So I returned from Alaska...still wound tight due to some issues that did not sit right with me

these issues still bug me

I have compartmentalize that an will deal with it later

it is best to separate the emotional aspect in order to understand

a situation clearly, unprejudiced

week upon week as I added more and more to my list of things to get done

when I left for Alaska I had left a list of things that hubby needed to deal with

I returned to only one job of many on his list done

yes it was a big job...paint, put finishing corners on the workshop building

For months friends made jokes of his not getting his list done

hahaha...it was funny and

expected

given that this summer was unmercifully sweltering hot here 

After many sleepless nights, up painting at 2:30 a.m., 

long long days of non-stop endless tasks

I felt like I was in this alone

I stopped an found a way to decompress somewhat

Thank you Faith!

furious instant messaging and sound questioning and advice...

finally realized why he couldn't accomplish the tasks he needs to deal with as he was/is 

totally overwhelmed and couldn't/can't get it together....

I need to be at his side and work with him which is not what I wanted to do....two of us

doing different tasks to me gets things done quicker. 

Now that I have come to terms with this

things are back on track and progressing 

without me being totally off the wall in frustration!

mayham and murder adverted!

I did get to go out a shoot with one of my new camera's and that was good

so here are some of the photo's

yes it has been a long time...there are reasons for this I apologize!

this is a short apology for not updating and I promise to do so soon....

I warn you though...

it will be several chapters of averted mayham and murder accounts

I started this blog so that friends and family could keep up with what was happening in our 

lives and for others who are interested in what it takes some to make the move to Alaska.

Now I am a person who would believes and lives by:

never do to others what you do not want done to you

that being said 

I would never intentionally hurt someones feeling, post something that would divulge any

information that could be used against some one or such

From day one I have been being told...don't post this, take that off, please don't mention this or that...

Well...I've had it....this blog I created for me...

for what I and Dan are personally going through with this preparation for the move and the move itself..

and as of right now....I've had it with all the depressed, paranoid,  fearful people who want to control what I post ...sooo...

Piss off all of you...

they say that building a house together can cause enough stress that couples split up

well so can a move of this magnitude as far as I can see...

don't get me wrong...we will work thru it

alot has happened since I last posted

things that have stopped me dead in my tracks....

more later and no sorry no photos with this rant! sorry!

Had to take a break from working on the house and packing stuff so....

We are still packing stuff and moving it into the 24ft trailer we will haul to Alaska!

Am still going to have to move most everything back into the house when carpentry is finished and go thru it again!

Any how....

the fall crisp air has hit! 

love the smell, crunch of the leaves underfoot as we walk up the road or on a trail.

Still struggling with this new camera and refused to carry my old faithful Nikon D80.

So here are some shots from yesterday.

From the top of our dirt road...a 60 mile view looking at Mt. Monadnock in N.H.

 I've lived in this town 32 years and hubby just told me  that this rock has always been known as "a$$ crack rock"~!

 yes that is a beaver an he's huge!!! as I do not know the camera and he was moving fast this is the result...I kinda like it..looks like a watercolor painting!

He did a major slap with his tail and dove making a big 'ol splash 

which of course I didn't get...If I had my 'ol faithful Nikon I would have had the shot~

this morning,  we went out the breakfast at Elmer's Store, with great friends and I had to take some other photo's!

 The Inn at Norton Hill in Ashfield MA ...yayyyyy the main street gets color thank you Nan! Displaced after Katrina Hurricane Nan came to Ashfield and has "shook" the town with Louisiana culture!!

The house across the street just looked sooo inviting! Typical New England porch!

Finally....finally our Cherry Kitchen is done and it's apple pie season!!!

The installer finally....finally... finished....what???.... a kitchen that was suppose to take one week for the cabinet install....not his fault they store kept ordering the wrong items..

he did a fabulous job...12 weeks later....of course it did take us some time to make the cherry counter tops and install them...

 now the question is do I take the time to sand with 320 grit and buff it out with auto paste to get that glass finish??? guess I'll wait an see as there are more important things to finish up....

waaahooo I love this time of year....cool weather although it has been raining for 2 day which we need...

doesn't make it good for going out for photography of the fall foliage...

don't need wet camera equipment to clean and dry

BUT....

it is apple season! 

love the smells of fall...the musky earthy scents of the woods, apple orchards 

just outdoors in general

this is the first year that we are not bucking up about 8 cords of wood for next year

our routine is out of whack

I usually put up 20-24 frozen apple pies at this time of year

soooo....don't know but I am starting with 8 apples pies

if the house sells I'll just give away the frozen pies I guess

but here are a few pictures of local apples that I just love to see an smell at this time of year

Had another huge tag sale an made $$!! yayyyy got rid of lots of stuff again.

Measured up the trailer to see where to set the bed up as we will be sleeping in the trailer for the trip....

wow...I am now pushing for having the house ready for sale by Thanksgiving!

would love to be on the road and just gypsy roading it for months until the roads and  snow storms pass to drive up to Alaska.

Hubby just wants to go to Tennessee and sit for the winter...ummm

not my idea at all but we'll see

I want to keep moving

I just love the unknown!!!

well fine morn'n just FINE! grrrr...

Well now....we have been in the whirlwind mode of sorting through everything we own as to what to  keep and take with us and what to get rid of.

Hubby headed out for the weekend for a "guys weekend" at the races in N.H. 

so this morn'n I tackled some items that came out of the little beverage refrig.

wouldn't ya know it....I thought the quart was old hard cider and as the refrig had been turned off for some time....I figured it might not be good so....

As I have no kitchen sink right now...by the way the cherry counters are looking fabulous...I have 2 more processes of steelwooling and varnish to do on the sink side.

Anyway I take the quart bottles into the downstairs bathroom and pop the cap....

YIKES.....it starts spraying BEER everywhere, all over me, the sink, walls, floor...

crapweasel....

so I decided it was time to update my blog and as this was going to be one of those days.

I have come to realize that everyday cannot be spent sorting thru stuff to get rid of!

It is overwhelming at times but is getting done.

So I did take a break an headed to the beach with another 'lil brother and his family for the annual Labor Day beach picnic.

Heading up I have seen these trucks along a side road many times but this time the foliage was growing over one of the trucks and I just found it beautiful.

I just love the ocean...I find that I look at familiar places differently now that we have made the decision to move to Alaska. 

I find myself wondering if it will be the last time I ever see it again.

The sky and clouds were just amazing!

I really like this sign...it is the way life should be!

So my beautiful niece (who by the way is into the art world like myself! yeayy!) says "let go over on the rocks and take pictures.....

well there was a day that I could bound from rock to uneven rock like a gazelle as she did...

I wonder if I can get back that kind of assured balance if 

I start doing yoga and core center exercises as I was more like a rock spider!

We did find some great stuff to photograph!

An my niece finds her first starfish ever!! yayyy!

Love crushed lobster traps! took lots of photos of this and will do some photo-art with them.

So enough of rock crawling, ocean wading we walked into the little town area.

The best salt water taffy ever! yup I bought a lb of it!

the taffy being "pulled"

off the puller waiting to be formed, cut and wrapped

Of course we can't leave Short Sands without stopping by the famous Nubble Point Lighthouse.

This seagull just had to get into the picture!

Lots of people at the lighthouse and then this fellow got out to feed the seagulls ritz crackers!

Awesome day at the beach with family! then back to other 'lil brothers house

Had to take pictures of this gorgeous flowering plant that my sister-in-law won!

with the wicker chair it just made for a great photo op!

What a nice get-away time from sorting, packing, renovations!

So many trivial doubts, the uncertainty of things.

which is what I struggle at times to realize, it is a good thing.

Life can get too settled, in a rut so to speak.

I am getting more at ease with the flexible, fluctuating plans for our lives.

Each part of the plan will fall into place eventually, just not in the order that we had planned on.

So Plan B happened first:  lake front weekend/retirement property 

Plan A:  is to own property in Homer, that not only has views of snow cap mountains and ocean that hubby so wants, in a town where work is more readily available that we need for the several more years before retiring.

 Plan C: eventually the big island for winter retreats! We are planning and wishing big...

This still is subject to change....as we have not explored the S.E. island areas of Alaska.

Life is good when you finally free yourself of all ties and can float free to do as you please! Ahhh such an adventure it will be!